Hi my name is Kim and these are 10 things that scare me.
Number one. Paper cuts between my fingers.
Number two. Not being enough for the people that I love.
Number three. Chewing on tinfoil. That’s a weird one, but you know when you, like, get a burrito or something, and accidentally chew on a little bit of tinfoil and it feels weird for a second? Like, I can't stop thinking about that sometimes and it scares me.
Number four. Never getting to a place where I can support myself with my own work.
Number five. Malls. People are so fucking aimless in malls. Just go where you're going. I don't understand. Like, go to go to the Apple store. That's where you have to go. Walk faster.
Number six. Being brainwashed by a cult leader. And that's the kind of thing… because you hear about cults and you watch all these documentaries and stuff, and you always think the people are so stupid and vulnerable. But, like, what if you were that stupid and vulnerable? What if I am that stupid and vulnerable?
Number seven. Staying with the wrong person because I don't want to be alone or because I don't want to hurt them.
Number eight. Being vulnerable with new people who I like or even love, and finding out they can't be there for me the way that I need them to be. And having all the hopes I placed into that relationship shattered.
Number nine. Being wrong about who I think that I am.
Number ten. Being attacked and being too stunned to scream.
My name is Kim and these are 10 things that scare me.