BRIAN D'ADDARIO

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Number 1. My parents dying. That scares me.

Number 2. Getting Alzheimer's disease.

Number 3. My brother dying. We're both on the same page about what we'd prefer. You know we’d both prefer to be the first. But I remember you know like falling asleep in the same bed and like hugging each other like, I mean we're just like really like we're so, so close.

Number 4. Becoming bankrupt artistically.

Number 5. Overexposure.

Number 6. Underexposure. It's really enjoyable for me to like be at a show of ours and be able to like talk to people at the show and them, you know, talk to me like a human being you know, which is really what the experience is right now. Underexposure is just like complete, no one caring, which, you know, I think as long as I was able to make a living wouldn't be that bad, actually, but you want someone to care about your music.

Number 7. Losing touch with my soul. I didn't think that I believed in having a soul or something, whatever that means, I mean I have a pretty vague idea of what it means to myself. But I was able to say it in a song before I was able to ever say it to another person. Because I've written so many songs about situations that I wasn't ready to face consciously, that I look back on it a year later and I say, oh I knew exactly what was going on in that situation. I just, you know, I wasn't ready to face it because your mind gets clouded with all this crap and all these excuses and ways to do the easier thing that you can look at a situation a thousand different ways, none of which were accurate.

Number 8. Bees. 

Number 9. Going to the bathroom with the door closed. I mean, I couldn't go to the bathroom with the door closed ‘til I was like probably, you know ten or something, I don’t know. Well, you know, someone behind the shower curtain, you know if I close the door, then he would reveal himself. But I was too proud to look behind the shower curtain every time. So I figured I would just leave the door open. So if he got me, someone would be able to help.

Number 10. I'm afraid we’ll lose the ability to recognize a life beyond what we see in front of us.

My name is Brian D'Addario and these are ten things that scare me.