Number 3. My brother dying. We're both on the same page about what we'd prefer. You know we’d both prefer to be the first. But I remember you know like falling asleep in the same bed and like hugging each other like, I mean we're just like really like we're so, so close.
Number 4. Becoming bankrupt artistically.
Number 5. Overexposure.
Number 6. Underexposure. It's really enjoyable for me to like be at a show of ours and be able to like talk to people at the show and them, you know, talk to me like a human being you know, which is really what the experience is right now. Underexposure is just like complete, no one caring, which, you know, I think as long as I was able to make a living wouldn't be that bad, actually, but you want someone to care about your music.
Number 7. Losing touch with my soul. I didn't think that I believed in having a soul or something, whatever that means, I mean I have a pretty vague idea of what it means to myself. But I was able to say it in a song before I was able to ever say it to another person. Because I've written so many songs about situations that I wasn't ready to face consciously, that I look back on it a year later and I say, oh I knew exactly what was going on in that situation. I just, you know, I wasn't ready to face it because your mind gets clouded with all this crap and all these excuses and ways to do the easier thing that you can look at a situation a thousand different ways, none of which were accurate.
Number 8. Bees.
Number 9. Going to the bathroom with the door closed. I mean, I couldn't go to the bathroom with the door closed ‘til I was like probably, you know ten or something, I don’t know. Well, you know, someone behind the shower curtain, you know if I close the door, then he would reveal himself. But I was too proud to look behind the shower curtain every time. So I figured I would just leave the door open. So if he got me, someone would be able to help.
Number 10. I'm afraid we’ll lose the ability to recognize a life beyond what we see in front of us.
My name is Brian D'Addario and these are ten things that scare me.