Number two. Not getting the seat on the airplane that I want. I fly Southwest a lot, and I will always pay the extra thirty dollars to get checked in in time so I get to the head of the line. Because I need that front seat with the extra legroom and the window. Because I’m tall, but I’m also… that’s my seat.
Number three. Not being able to wear high heels. I'm 5’ 10” and my M.O. is to be over 6’ every day. I like being really tall, and I love the way high heels look on me. I love the way they make me feel. They give me confidence. Like, I was in New York for ten years and then I moved to Nashville fourteen years ago, and my personality is very warm, and I overshare, and I think that sometimes that comes across as me not being serious, and I mean business.
Number four. Moths. This has to do with me being somebody who has worked in fashion for the last thirty years, and being a collector of clothing. Moths are my mortal enemy. When I see one inside of my house it is literally like I can't sleep that night. I kind of go crazy. Friends who have been over when I've seen them have thought, like, you just really need to calm down right now.
Number five. Being hit by a flying inanimate object.
Number six. Failing my team, my family, my friends.
Number seven. Not being enough. I have a company now, and I've got four employees that depend on me to pay them every two weeks. And, I don't know, it's like, am I enough to keep this thing afloat?
Number eight. Falling back into a deep depression. I came forward on my Instagram account. I posted about having been suicidal in the past. And the reason I wanted to talk about it is because if you look at my Instagram account, or if you meet me, or if you talk to me, you would never know that I've struggled with depression for my entire life, and I've definitely been suicidal before, and not that long ago. So, I look for the clues, and when I feel it coming in, it's scary. Like, I know when to call my psychiatrist, and I know when I need to tweak my meds. So, I know now. I know what to do.
Number nine. I feel like there were years when my peers were settling down and were finding love, and, you know, figuring out who their mate was going to be. And I didn't do it. There's a lot of people who say that when you start drinking alcohol early that your maturity freezes at that level. And so I think for a long time I was living in my early 20s. I was making such bad decisions, and when I got sober I was scared for so long. I don't know. Somewhere along the way did I make this Faustian deal where I got to have my own businesses thriving, and I got to have my house of my dreams, but I don't get to be in love?
Number ten. Not being scared enough.
My name is Libby Callaway and these are 10 things that scare me.