Number one. My boyfriend dying, but like a really long time from now when our lives are very connected. I mean, we actually just got engaged yesterday, so I don't know how to... so I don't know how to refer to him, really.
Two. Bad things happening to my eyes.
Number three. The apocalypse happens and knowing I don't have a chance, and don’t have value, worrying that no one will have the guts to shoot me.
Four. Being made fun of and not realizing that I'm being made fun of.
Number five. I used to be scared of calling people on the phone.
Number six. That my drawings are bad.
Number seven. That my feelings aren't normal. That I don't feel things in a normal way.
Number eight. That I have a landlord that's negligent that's letting me drink toxic water.
Nine. That my family doesn't love me. What if they're just, like, I guess we have to hang out with this person, but I don't love them. Because I don't necessarily know what familial love is supposed to look like or feel like.
Number ten. Recounting events that I've experienced and not being believed.
My name is Jensine Eckwall. These are 10 things that scare me.