Listener Special: Felix
Number one. Heights
Number two. Crowds. That is, smaller groups of people, so people that can easily notice you and judge you. Big crowds don't do that, or to a lesser extent
Number three. Darkness
Number four. Being ignored. Being ignored means not getting any information. If someone is confronting you about something or fighting with you they are at least expressing themselves or telling you what's bothering them either directly or implicitly. But if someone is ignoring you that can have all sorts of reasons. That really scares and agitates me.
Number five. Dying alone.
Number six. Completely losing control. That's also the reason why I don't drink and I don't take drugs. I'm really scared of letting go. That's also why I don't live my life too riskily.
Number seven. Pain inflicted through violence.
Number eight. Spiders
Number nine. Never being completely sure of something. I'm a very self-conscious person and I usually see both sides of a conversation, so it’s hard to decide. It’s harder and harder to be specific. And I'm actually scared that for the rest of my life I will never be able to be sure of the things that are important to me.
Number ten. Actually being betrayed. I'm not only self-conscious but also very jealous, but I can usually convince myself that what I am thinking is imagination. People are not actually betraying me. That's what I'm telling myself. If someone did betray me I think I couldn't take it. I would have to end our relationship.
Hi I'm Felix and these are 10 things that scare me.