So yeah do you want it counting up or counting down? OK.
Number one. Bugs. That fly. Because I don't know where they're gonna go. Very unpredictable and I don't like bugs to be on me.
Number two heights. It does that thing where your legs can't really move and you get that feeling in the pit of your stomach. Do you have any fears like that?
Number three. The music that plays in trailers for scary movies.
Number four. The content of scary movies.
Number five. A murderer from a scary movie coming to my house to murder me.
Number six. Seven. The movie Seven. That should have been number seven. Seven is one of those movies where like I watched a sleep over and to be cool I just like didn't cover my eyes. Everybody else went to bed and I just like laid there with my eyes open.
Number seven. Vulnerability. I am a stand up comic for a living. So. My last special is called rape jokes and it's about my experience as a survivor of sexual assault. So that actually is a very very vulnerable hour. I don't mean that I'm not vulnerable on stage. I think I am vulnerable on stage. I mean more that it is a controlled environment. I am the person that gets to talk. No one else gets to talk. I am the person that is in charge of the conversation and that's the story that not only friends or family knew. You know it's easier for me to tell it on stage. So you know I think my art could actually be a little less vulnerable, to be honest and my human life could be a little more vulnerable.
Number eight. Failure. Achievement is such a good way of scaling existence. I exist because I did all these things so I have value. I don't know that I am connected to a feeling of inherent worth. You know I was like raised really Catholic and so you know like your worth is based on how good you are, like how you know how close to God or whatever. But then I don't give a shit about that anymore so that goes away. I think I need to work on like feeling comfortable in my own skin and with my own attractiveness because like if you're a queer person especially on the butch spectrum or like if we had better words more masculine of center you don't get a ton of positive feedback about your looks except from like a very small percentage of population who give you a lot of feedback on your looks, so it's very confusing so I think working on some self-confidence might be a good idea.
Number nine. Something terrible happening to me because I'm a woman,.
And Number Ten something terrible happening to me because I'm queer.
I'm Cameron Esposito and these are 10 things that scare me.