Number one. Going over, like, driving or walking across big tall narrow bridges. I'm completely fine with mountains and skyscrapers, though, but the height on bridges feels really weird.
Number two. My rent going up.
Number three. People touching my neck. Even, like, scarves I'm not great with.
Number four. Really big snakes. Small ones, I'm kind of fine with, I think, but the big ones...
Number five. The suicide of a loved one just seems truly horrifying, like of a friend or a loved one.
Number six. This question of, what if I never fall in love with anyone? I don't know. I feel like it should have happened, or I feel like I should know what it's like. Our whole world is kind of built around it, this idea that you've got your family and your friends, but then everybody kind of pairs off and sometimes that manifests in just... oh I can't make this last minute plan with you, and sometimes you just feel kind of like, oh, everybody else is part of this other world. The other thing I never get is people who fall in love and then immediately and fully link together. Because, my roommate just fell fast in love with someone and she's never home anymore, or at least it seems like it, and so I'm like, oh, I just have this like two bedroom all to myself now. I don't want that, though. Looking for: Old fashioned love. We live in separate houses. You, cabin upstate. Me, apartment in the city. Us, together two days a week. Occasional phone calls, light texting. Don't touch my neck.
Number seven. I don't believe in ghosts, but I am sometimes still afraid of ghosts.
Number eight. Suppressed memories. I don't think I have any, but for a long time I was really afraid that I had suppressed memories because when I was a kid I was an altar server, like an altar boy, and there were a couple times that I like passed out on the altar, basically. I think it was just because it was really hot, and you wore these hot robes and it was first thing in the morning in the summer, and in retrospect I realized all the adults in my life were freaking out because we had a bad priest. Father Tom had to go to, like, special retirement. For a long time I was like, I hope nothing surfaces. But the idea that like you could have had this trauma that was just so bad your brain is like, no it didn't happen, is scarier than what any trauma could be.
Number nine. Accidents on ladders.
Number ten. This very specific scene in The Mothman Prophecies. Somebody is driving and then somebody in the middle of street has their arms out late at night and they have to, like, swerve and get out of the way. So like, number ten: Mothman related driving fears.
My name is Matt Collette and these are 10 things that scare me.